Without you, I didn't even have a pulse

So, my best friend, Piper, wasn't at school until Wednesday. And me being so sad, made something happen, because guess what? She was on the bus this morning and that adds to my good week. But, I did miss her the first three days and yeah it was pretty dull without her. Okay, not pretty dull. Super dull. I missed her and I like to be with her every second of the day. But sadly.. that unfortunate little sickness spread from her to her father.

But there's always just that one little thing that keeps you from having the most perfect little ending. Her aunt, doesn't want me bringing her to my house. I don't know why and I really want to talk to her aunt, because her aunt's son is my best friend and I hang out with him. But apparently, it's something to do with Piper's mom and my other best friend's mom.

This world is quite complicated, and I know it won't always be twinkly lights...

Freak The Freak Out.

Title says it all. Today I had a great day because it consisted of me missing P.E. and doing cello and set design for the holiday show. And in science, Michael sat next to me and was talking to me majority of the time. Like, I'm freaking out. Since when did Michael Christian give a flying shit about me and why does he, all of a sudden? I'm trying not to get my hopes high, and think that he likes me. But It's sorta impossible to, when he talkes to me like, 24/7. Sometimes I freak out for no reason, it's quite weird.

Yesterday, my dad like, blew up when I said I was listening to music and doing homework. He grabbed the computer and slammed the screen down and when I closed the door, he fucking like thrust it open so hard that I swear, that room could have broke down for all it was.. I was like- Jeez dude, you got severe anger issues.

Anyway, I told him to stop checking on me every five minutes like a nazi and he blew up with anger. I was like- Man, you gotta calm down. But I said all of that except for the nazi thing in my head.

Talk about people being on short fuses. Other than that, my week has been pretty perfect. Only if every day I sat with Michael. I memorized his Jerseys. Today he was wearing a long one, that said-
7, Brees, Eagles.

Oh god, I am in mad love with this imbecile.

This Has Gotta Be The Good Life

I'm screaming my fucking head off. My teacher seated me next to my major crush, Michael Fucking Christian. I so can't believed this. I'm sitting next to the basketball superstar, super hot, popular guy. It's all for a reason. We picked the same math sheet for a reason. Our pictures in our classroom pictue, are together.We got seats next to each oter for a reason.

Have you ever just liked that one person so much you live and breathe for them? I know how it feels. Totes. I nearly had a heart attack in the morning and I was like prep talking myself. I was fanning my cheeks and trying not to die. I'm so excited. This is gonna be the best few month(s).


I also made this super nice friend named Elizabeth Mattes. She's really sweet and nice. I might be going over to her house on Saturday from one to three. YAY. This is so great. Can this week get any better? No, No it cannot. I'm so happy that I forgot that I'm grounded from my Ipod and computer for three weeks.

But Lexi and I are wrapping things up now that I hang out with Elizabeth and Anya more than her. She has like, seventy thousand friends, why would she need me? I don't know why but I had this crippling fear that she was using me. What do you think? Cause' we're math partners at school and she barely talks to me other than math, when she grabs my notebook and copies my answers which I find SUPER annoying. I didn't officially fight with Lexi, but I bet that she's thinking the same so it's a mutual friendship ending.

For This Is The End.

"When it crumbles, we will stand tall, and face it all together at skyfall."
- Adele

Today, I declare that this is the end. Alexis and I are officially not friends. I can't trust anyone any more. At recess I heard her say-

"Do you want to get Malika and Yegi out?" And I clearly heard them. That's what they said. I don't know what grudge they hold against Malika. I understand they don't like Yegi, Alexis already told me she doesn't like her because she stole all her third grade friends and that Yegi was mean to Doug.

But with Malika? I think it's because of her race. See, I think people judge you by what color you are, this year. I'm a pale brown shade, so I don't think many people want to hang out with me.  This is what I hate about my school. Everyone is just racial =/

Sunday Nights

Sunday nights are def the worst. I hate it because the next day is Monday and Monday means fucking school. Fuck that shit.

Why does school exsist anyway? Why do I wake up everyday having intentions of a good day? Wait, before anything.. WHY DO I EVEN WAKE UP?

I don't really like school, considering that none of my friends are in my class. There are two girls whom I'm quite friendly with, but they're both way too Popular for me. Here's the girl popularity chart  :


Girls who play Soccer and Lacrosse together = Cassandra, Elise, Jill, Violette, Alexis, Elise, Helena,Payton and Mary.

Girls who are girly, and compliment each other on their clothing= Jen, Anya, Carolina, Illayda, Jackie, Lexi, and Bella

People Know Them = Oriana, Malika, Yegi, Me, Medha, Alexis, Anna, Olivia, Priyanka, and Vani.

Girls who started a group at the beginning of the year = Christy, Allison, Amira, Vanessa, Ridley, and Kate.


So basically, the first category gossips about me behind my back and comments mean/stupid stuff on my instagram.

I'm watching the last ever Icarly episode, called IGoodbye. It's super depressing, because I always loved  the show.  And there's so much of Sam and Spencer. I ship them. Sam and Freddie are cut, but SAM AND SPENCER :)

THE MOTORCYCLE <3