Everything is torn apart. And That's the Hardest Part.

Michael and Sophie like each other. I'm sure of it, and it hurts me. Maybe I should be prettier like Sophie. I'm nowhere near someone as pretty as a girl from England, who plays Minecraft, and is pretty. I'm just an ordinary girl who sits on Blogspot and plays Legend Of Zelda all day. Is that anywhere near Sophie? When someone tells me I look pretty, I'm like.. "Is this some kind of sick joke?" That's how ugly I am.

Like, why would she ever steal Michael when she clearly knows that I like him and left a note in his desk saying that I like him? Which idiot would do that? Someone incredibly vain like her?
Let's face it. Even if I was spitting coins in the middle of the classroom and wearing neon green clothes while I was at it, he would still be chatting to Sophie. He's her Louis and She's his Harry. What can I do about it?

Sophie used to be really mean to me, and now she's all nicey nice cause' we talked once or twice. Geez, that kid REALLY needs to lay off on Michael.

And another thing that really irks me is the fact that Michael and Caroline are like... IDK. Together. I understand that they are student council but the thought of them being together for even a millisecond REALLY annoys me.

"MICHAEL! WE NEED TO GO TO FIVE PETRONE!"
"MICHAEL! WE NEED TO GO TO KINDERGARTEN!"
"OOOOOH! HEY! MICHAEL! HEY! WE HAVE STUDENT COUNCIL LUNCH"

The next thing might as well ne-
"MICHAEL AT THE NEXT STUDENT COUNCIL WE NEED TO MAKE BABIES!"

Friday I'll Be Over U.

Okay, I'm going crazed. Now I try to talk to Michael every second of the day. I'm taking advantage of this seating. But I think he likes this girl named Sophie, who's pretty nice most of the time. He was doing flashcards with Michael, and flirting with him when we were playing Bingo. I memorized his Jerseys. The color of his braces. His address. His mom's email. His dad's email. I bet that bitch, Sophie, doesn't know that much about him, huh?

I really need to find someone else. Like, honestly. These thoughts are strangling in my mind, therefore not letting me think properly, and I have about gajillion thoughts in my head, the stupidest ones, about Michael.

I realized every time I hang out with him more, I make myself look more stupid.. so why bother?

Maybe if I was like prettier like Sophie he would like me.

Wake Up In The Moring, Feeling like P Diddy.

Hell bored. Nope, I'm just saying that to hide my concern in the fact that Michael Christian's mom is the realtor of the house my parents really are thinking of buying. And what if we go to an open house? My biggest concerns are super stupid but (a) I think one day Michael might come with her, and watch as the day he comes is the day I go to that damn' open house. (b) Michael told his mom about the letter I wrote, and said it's from Ananya Rajagopal.

THEN WHAT?  I doubt it but it could happen. I'll keep you posted, guys. School time!

All I Want For Christmas, Is You.

Mhm. Yesterday, I was at the Christmas Tree Town Lighting and my friend told me that she saw Michael. I was like freaking out big time. I was acting like a drunk woman and I wore my angry birds hat, then put my friends' polar bear hat on it and I went around the town screaming-
"I'm a polar bird!" Everyone was like- WTF

After that my friend and I walked the streets of Ridgewood screaming- BANANNA POTATO BANANNA POTATO

YEAH WE SO CRAYYY